Tere ishq mein..

Tere ishq mein

Jaage kabhi, soye kabhi

Neend bina rahe khoye kabhi

Tere ishq mein

Tanha rahe kabhi

Sang dil rahe kabhi

Roothein, manayein, maan bhi jaayein

Hanske rulaye, Ro kar hansaye

Kabhi bhoolein, yaad aaye

Chahat lutaye

Ek duje bin ek pal na reh paaye

Tere ishq mein

Soona lage

Har rasta

Galiyan bhari logon se bhi

Teri ishq mein

Viraan lage

Roshan jo thi kaliyan sabhi

Chamke taare aasman mein jaise

Dur kahin ek tara tum bhi

Tere ishq mein

Lage kaaynaat saari humari

Tere ishq mein

Mar ke jiyun, ji ke marun

Jivan mera

Ban jaao tum

Tere ishq mein

Chalti rahun

Aankhen khuli

Dekhein kuch bhi nahi

Tujhko dekhun

Tujhko sochun

Tere ishq mein

Aur kya chahun

Tere ishq se

Banti rahe

Har woh ladi

Ban jaaye kabhi

Jo kahani meri

Tere ishq se

Saansein meri

Ban jaoon main

Kismat teri

Tere ishq pe

Qurbaan rahe

Sab kuch mera

Ho ek din tera

Tere ishq pe

Main mar mitoon...

De doon tujhe

Khushiyan sabhi

Main ban sakun

Mohabbat teri

Tere ishq mein

Hai bas yahin

Chahat meri...

Could I?

Could I ever be just to your love?

Could I ever do justice by it?

Could I ever be fair to it?

Could I ever be good enough for it?

Your perfection, your kindness,

Your warmth, your gentleness,

Your apt words, your charming innocence,

Your tone of voice, your guileless wit,

I love you for who you are

Victory in itself for a love that would be

Silencing my critics and my inner hypocrisy

I take you as you are

I love you, I do

I like the sound of it as I say

The same words a million times

Couldn't ever tire of saying a phrase

Language becomes the food of love

Making us feel a feeling better as it were

Redeeming our souls by a small measure

Bringing it back from the hell of self-control

Letting ourselves loose and believing in sweet surrender

Cutting off from sanity

With complete and mindless unwonder

The universe conspires

It makes things happen

Perhaps they're two lovers too

Whispering sweet nothings into ears

Life is a kaleidoscope

A mish mash of colours

I see all of them through my own peephole

Not through that of any others'

Afsaane

Gin sakte ho laakh afsaane humare tumhare kal ki kitabon mein

Paaoge kitni hi tasvire humari guzre pal ke sirhaane mein

Kabhi tum humse kabhi hum tumse yeh baatein kehte the

Pyaar dono karte the, par zahir kuch kum hi karte the

Diwano se guzarte the in diwaron ho narm haathon se chute chute

Nishaan kabhi apne chhod jayenge yeh socha na tha in galiyaron mein

Kabhi khidki se jhaankti thi waqt ki nigahein

Aur hans deti thi mere bholepan par

Khoyi khoyi rehti thi main tere mann ke bhanvar mein aur tu meri saanson ki gehraayi mein

Khel nahi tha sach tha yeh waqt bhi kabhi samajh na paaya

Tumhe aur mujhe bhi mushkil si hui toh waqt ko mujrim kaise thehraya jaaye

Tumhari main

Kehkar karti thi har khat ka ant

Jaana kab tha isse pehle

Ke koi aur kabhi us naam mein bhi dhal jaaye

Jagah meri zindagi mein tere

Koi aur bhi kabhi le paaye

Tez jitna soche koi

Utna aur sab kuch dhundla lagta hai

Jab bhi kisi cheez ka matlab samajhne ki koshish karein

Thoda aur dur woh humse ho jaaye

Lakh kehne aur karne par bhi

Kuch koshishein kaafi nahi hoti

Ban jaate hain hum phir woh chote bachche

Jinki kabhi koi khwahish puri nahi hoti...

Dard ki har aah se nikalta ek shabd hai

Chah ke har gham se ek kavita

Dil ke har ghaanv se ek nishani pyaar ki

Meri har likhavat mein chupa tera ek chehra

Tere pehluon ke rang se

Bharti hoon main kagaz pe kagaz

Tere har ehsaas ko lekar

Banati hoon ek nayi kahani

Soch ki gehrai se lekar

Khayal ke aasman tak

Le jaati hoon main in lafzon ko

Par hai yeh gham se jude hi kyun?

Kyun nahi bante kisi khushi ki nishani?

Waqt ne ek din aa kar mujhse mera sab kuch maang liya

Mana kaise karti, tha saara usika toh diya

Par kabhi kabhi koi cheez zindagi ban jaati hai

Zarurat se bhi zyaada koi shabd ban jaati hai

Tera aana bhi ek ittefaq

Tera jaana shayad tera ittefaq ho

Jo hua mere saath kuch der pehle

Woh shayad tere saath kahin aur ho

Waqt ko nazar andaz kar ke hi chalo

Nahi toh waqt se aage kaise dekh paaoge

Ek din meri bahon mein

Duje din sirf meri nigaahon mein

Kaise reh paaoge

Pyaar ke har haseen pal ki shuruvat tere naam se hoti hai

Ant kisi aur ke hawale kaise kar dun, keh de...

Kahani teri meri yahin toh khatam ho nahi sakti...

Rakhungi yeh moti sambhale

Shayad kisi din milkar piro dein hum inhe...

tere saath toh main hamesha hi thi
par zarurat tujhe shayad kisi aur ki thi
apna sab kuch bhi de diya tujhe maine
apne aap ko tere hawale kar diya maine
par yakeen ek pal tujhe mujhpar na tha
kaise dilati tujhe aur kya kehti tujhe main
samjha nahi apna ek pal bhi tune mujhe
keh diya raah mein bohot hain
dikha diya teri chaah mein bohot hain
aankhein kholi meri tune
jab woh pal guzar jaata hai na
toh saath sab le jaata hai
kuch aur thi main kuch pal pehle
koi aur hun main kuch hi palon mein
teri baaton pe yakeen karun kaise
jab meri sachhai ka yakeen tujhe ho na saka
dil aur jaan dono tere haathon mein dekar bhi
tu ek pal ke liye bhi mera ho na saka
shayad tum bas apne ho
aur baaki saare mehmaan hai tumhare
shayad main tumhari chahat kabhi ban na sakun
kam se kam yeh ehsaas hai
ke humraaz kuch pal ki thi tumhari
koi haq kisiko kaise deta hai
koi haq kisika kaise nahi
yeh lafz zahir nahi kiya karte
jab waqt aa jaata hai kisi rishte ka
toh us rishte ki umr woh khud hi keh deta hai
tumse mili har khushi sar aankhon par
aur har gham tumhe yaad karne ki wajah banayenge
galatiyan aaj ki hain humne
phir kabhi hum inhe na dohrayenge

kyun...

jab sab kho jaata hai toh nazrein kaise milate hain apne aap se
jab sab chale jaatein hai toh manch khali sa kyun lagta hai
kisike hone na hone se duniya kyun banti hai
dil ke khone se khushiyan kyun milti hain
jab aate hain akele toh kisika milna zaruri kyun hota hai
bewafa jab itne hote hain toh wafa karna zaruri kyun hota hai
yun toh shayar hum nahi magar dil ke tutne se kavita kyun banti hai
tum nahi toh main kyun hoti hun
hum nahi toh sab kyun hota hai
sab kho kar bhi hum the aur ab sab ho kar bhi hum nahi
dur reh kar bhi pyaar tha, paas reh kar do ajnabi ban gaye
jo mere dil mein tha woh tum mein kyun na ho saka
jo hamare liye socha tha woh hamara kyun na ho saka
kyun sapne dekhte hain hum agar un mein pura hone ki shakti nahi
kyun kehte hain kisiko apna agar hum mein unhe chahne ki bhakti nahi
har pal jo socha tha tumko woh tum the hi nahi yeh jaana kyun humne
har pal jo humse banta tha woh hum kuch tha hi nahi yeh samjha humne
aankhein khulti hai toh phir der se kyun
raat bhi hoti hai toh phir woh kat jati nahi kyun
intezaar karte karte nazre thak jaayein magar guzre pal phir wahin nahi hote
zindagi ke har faisle sahi kyun nahi hote
nasamjhi kyun ban jaatein hain hum ek pal mein
jise jaan kar baithe the woh ajnabi kyun ban jaatein hain
kehne nahi dete kisiko ek lafz tumhare khilaaf
phir ek pal mein mere maayne kaise badalne dete ho tum
jab khamosh rehna tha toh keh rahe the pyaar karte ho tum
aur ab khamoshi jaan le rahi hai toh mud ke bhi na dekh rahe ho tum
rukti nahi yeh chalne wali saansein kyun apne aap
kyun mere siddhant mujhe chod nahi dete ek pal apne saath
behna chahun main agar samay ki dhara mein
toh samay kyun mujhe maat dene ki koshish kar raha hai
har cheez jise pooja maine woh kyun mera saath chod raha hai
agar pyaar hi sab kuch hai, vishwaas hi sab kuch hai
toh tutne kyun dete hain hum inhe
agar hum tum ek duniya hai
toh chootne kaise dete hai raah mein hum inhe
kagaz par kagaz bhar doon sawalon se
par jawab milne se raha mujhe
ke kisike hone se duniya kyun banti hai
ke dil ke khone se khushiyan kyun judi hoti hain...

Bitterness and lies.

Have you ever felt
Like someone stole your happiness
And wondered when you gave them the right
And then why at all in the first place.
If your heart was yours
Would it be broken at all?
If the dreams were yours
Would you let them be bared for all?
Piece by piece, your peace taken away.
Sleepless nights spent trying to keep the demons away
Loss and doom, loom large
The sight of the horizon now lost, now found.
Fumbling along the path,
There's darkness all around
Even the sun backs off and says
I'm not the one you need right now
Sometimes you have to fight some battles alone
Sometimes all you have is you
Sometimes the only one you can be proud of is yourself
Look up at the sky and wonder how
One individual in the scheme of it all
Could have so much power
Wonder when you gave it to them and how
Wonder if it's all worth it somehow.
Looking for reasons and finding none
A lonely struggle is life
Echoing loudly in your ears
Searching for something, forever walking
Oh I must sit down, I must find a field
High and low I search
But the sun avoids me
Damp seeps into my bone
Slowly but doggedly.
Two times the trouble, two times the pain
Two times the fog, two times the rain.
I wait alone, wait for someone to come
A warm hand through the clouds
A warm body to hold.
Expectations alone, I clasp to my throat
Still walking alone, powerless
Looking for a place I can call home.

My kind of guy...

Shhh.. I'm you're sweetheart and yes you're mine
You're the kind of guy I knew I wanted since I was nine
Sparkling eyes and a secret to tell
You wanted me, oh yes, I knew so well...

Silly poems and weird lines
I wrote it all so I could make you mine
Walked in my footsteps, you held my hand
You told the world, that you were my man

You're the kind of guy, who'd stay up till four
Waiting for me to finish my book written by some old bore
Watch me crinkle my eyes and smile back at you
Pull up the sheet and curl up next to you
You come close to me and tell me my perfume smells sexy
I tell you right back I'm not wearing any
You pull me even closer and you tell me that's what you see
An honesty beyond my years and the total lack of common courtesy
You hold me tight and tell me you don't
Take me seriously when the whole world does
Isn't that refreshing and isn't that cool
You'd be the only one of whom I'd believe that true
Because you're the kind of guy who made me feel proud
Of everything I'd done, tell me that until I was worn out

You're my kind of guy, you are my man
I saw you grow up and I know you'll stay till the end
Far and wide, I searched high and low
Literally tried it all, never learned to take it slow
You taught me the meaning of
All good things come in their own time
You made me wait, and you were alone the one who pulled it off.

You're that kind of guy who tried my patience
Made me pull my hair out, made me hate you with a vengeance
But behind it all, there was a true love
Made me say silly things, made me do even worse
At last, in the end, I faced myself
Looked me in the eye and told myself
You're that kind of guy, I knew I had to have
The only kind of guy, who'd ever grow up to be my man.

And look what we have today,
Look, we actually made it...
Who'd have thought we'd get through it all,
But I, I just knew you were my kind of guy...
The only one who'd make sure we made it..
I love you...

Eternity in a moment...

Sometimes love is so whole and overpowering that nothing else seems significant in life. Words flow from my fingertips as I write this. All sense of my senses lost, all magnitude of the world forgotten. We love but once in our lives. Who said only swans mate once in a lifetime. I have a love too. And I'm determined to make it last a lifetime. Spirits, uplifting experiences, mysticism, I only have to feel love to feel all of these. That sense of being lost in space and yet not lonely can only be arrived at through a careful and carefree renunciation of all that is not love. Hate, resentment, spite, jealousy, all forgotten in that sweeping sense of the justice of love. A balance that swings only one way cannot be human and yet who else can speak of love but us? The closest we'll ever get to being one with a creator is by closing our eyes and listening to the voice of love speaking. Have you ever heard it sing? Does it remind you of anyone? Sometimes things break inside us. We never believe we'll be whole again. A feeling of abandonment, a rock and a hard place. Have you ever hit the last step and felt you would die or watched the world spin around as we tried to understand? Seeking answers from blank eyes, eyes that showed a thinking long stopped. Why would we want to believe in a world again? Why would we think of trusting someone again? Of trusting eyes that had no recognition of who you were, crying your heart out everytime you thought about it. Then one day you wake up and meet a new purpose. A happy accident that you never thought would happen to you. Gently building up the foundation of your new resolve. Everything else above ground you already had prepared to show. The hollowness inside you felt after each day was gone. There was someone to care come rain or shine. All your happinesses and sorrows you had a conspirator to tell. Suddenly the only trust that mattered was yours without doubt. You tried and tried to escape the unlikeliness of it all. You tried and tried to tell yourself this couldn't all be yours. But it stayed with you, stayed faithful then as it remains truly yours now, ever more than then. All your personal hell has ceased to be. Your demons now have ceased to prey. Your soul again became bit by bit, a picture of wholeness, neither contrived nor contrite. A smile that starts in your eyes, several secrets that are yours alone. You're happy in the knowledge now, that someone somewhere waits for you alone. Those days of coming home to an empty home, or worse yet coming home to deathly silences, when you knew there was an evil foreboding, I always knew, do you know the feeling? But now that time has passed me by. And now without question, I'm yours and mine. You made me love, not just you but me. You gave me love, to last an eternity.