Saturday, November 08, 2008

Eternity in a moment...

Sometimes love is so whole and overpowering that nothing else seems significant in life. Words flow from my fingertips as I write this. All sense of my senses lost, all magnitude of the world forgotten. We love but once in our lives. Who said only swans mate once in a lifetime. I have a love too. And I'm determined to make it last a lifetime. Spirits, uplifting experiences, mysticism, I only have to feel love to feel all of these. That sense of being lost in space and yet not lonely can only be arrived at through a careful and carefree renunciation of all that is not love. Hate, resentment, spite, jealousy, all forgotten in that sweeping sense of the justice of love. A balance that swings only one way cannot be human and yet who else can speak of love but us? The closest we'll ever get to being one with a creator is by closing our eyes and listening to the voice of love speaking. Have you ever heard it sing? Does it remind you of anyone? Sometimes things break inside us. We never believe we'll be whole again. A feeling of abandonment, a rock and a hard place. Have you ever hit the last step and felt you would die or watched the world spin around as we tried to understand? Seeking answers from blank eyes, eyes that showed a thinking long stopped. Why would we want to believe in a world again? Why would we think of trusting someone again? Of trusting eyes that had no recognition of who you were, crying your heart out everytime you thought about it. Then one day you wake up and meet a new purpose. A happy accident that you never thought would happen to you. Gently building up the foundation of your new resolve. Everything else above ground you already had prepared to show. The hollowness inside you felt after each day was gone. There was someone to care come rain or shine. All your happinesses and sorrows you had a conspirator to tell. Suddenly the only trust that mattered was yours without doubt. You tried and tried to escape the unlikeliness of it all. You tried and tried to tell yourself this couldn't all be yours. But it stayed with you, stayed faithful then as it remains truly yours now, ever more than then. All your personal hell has ceased to be. Your demons now have ceased to prey. Your soul again became bit by bit, a picture of wholeness, neither contrived nor contrite. A smile that starts in your eyes, several secrets that are yours alone. You're happy in the knowledge now, that someone somewhere waits for you alone. Those days of coming home to an empty home, or worse yet coming home to deathly silences, when you knew there was an evil foreboding, I always knew, do you know the feeling? But now that time has passed me by. And now without question, I'm yours and mine. You made me love, not just you but me. You gave me love, to last an eternity.

1 comment:

Sundar said...

well expressed.if i may add a spiritual dimension, experiencing anything fully is a taste of eternity, full of bliss and joy.The mind inhibits our ability to experience moments totally on account of its perceptional filters. Such an experience is independent of events and the people therein. it is cuaseless love and limitless joy.

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